29 Nov 2009

Dear Diary,
I really have no idea what I've been doing.I think I need space.To be alone.For awhile.What am I thinking about?Don't dream about things that will never happen.I really feel tired.The last song on my playlist, is what I'm feeling now.although I don't understand a single word.It just shows how I'm feeling now.I'm glad I'll be on my vacation soon.Its the best timing for me to stop thinking and just absorb what I'm gonna learn from the trip.

I really felt hopeless during that time in cell.When I heard what was going on I was just speechless.It really hurts to see the cell being torn apart.Thats something I really don't want to see happen.The only reaction from me was to cry...I really felt useless...that I couldn't do anything to change or to reflect.Although Sam didn't blame anyone who was in worship min,I really felt that I couldn't do anything to save the cell because I wasn't around and I didn't know what was going on.It doesn't mean that I'm not to be blame too.I wasn't really sharing ideas for our cell's Sec 1 newcomers,so partly my fault too.Hmmm...I just pray that all of us will reflect on what happened.

So I guess those of u who have read this, knows what I'm thinking about?okay..bye bye

love.
Maddie:)