Its Time

I'm going to let go.set free.and fly
I really enjoyed the Phuket trip.Missing the kids already T.T
To move forward with a BIG smile.
To enjoy myself.
To be a bit selfish and think about myself.
To not be a fool.
I know.
"Love causes pain.What you gave me.I'm gonna give you back.I don't care if I'm a bad woman."
the quote above is from the song "I Cannot Forgive" by Cha Soo Kyung which is the Cruel Temptation OST

the show is really sad...and draggy...haha..I'm just waiting for the part where she plans her revenge...haha..yupp...

I'm going to be a GOOD girl and behave:)emm like sleeping early...

No I'm not lying, but when you look at me like that, how can I not smile?
You know who you are.I think:)

Someone please break this mask.....of being strong all the time.

M

THIS IS REALLY LONG!!!

Dear Diary,
yesterday was Fun :D I went out with my church peeps:D We wanted to have lunch & watch a movie at Vivo...we had lunch but we didn't stick to the plan..we went to the arcade :D haha...the guys spent loads for money there...Jia Ling lent them like 16-17 dollars to them...but had fun...haha...I was terrible at Dance Dance Revolution la...haha..first time I played Guitar Heroes Arcade...emmm the guitar was REALLY HEAVY!!!!but had fun playing..really challenging:)We spent almost the whole time at the arcade...and walked around the place...Quite sad that the National Geographic's CHILLER ROOM was under mantience..wanted to go in there to CHILL :) haha...after that,Bryan & Kenan went home.Jia Ling & I went with Douglas to Macs...got my free Apple pie:)Yum..said Goodbyes to Douglas..then both of us went to church.

Ate at hawker center...then we went to the library.I borrowed 3 books..called Evernight,Blue Blood & Masquerade.Meet AJ in Rm 303...Jac was late..She got stuck in her house's lift..luckly she was fine:)Had choir prac...I totally felt I couldn't reach at some point of the songs la...sore throat...mmhmmm after that choir peeps,went to the hawker..AJ & Jac didn't have dinner...bumped into Ben Goh & Chong Hao there:)I left first was like 9.40pm?late....I can't believe I walked so fast...I think it was because I needed the toilet badly:)

I meet my neighbour at AMK bus-stop...I think she saw me...haha..anyways,she took bus 73 & I took bus 25 after her.haha..I can't believe that I arrived home earlier than her..hehe...I slept abt 12.50pm?I was so tired...still feeling tired now...I need loads of sleep:)

Just remembered...so sad...Aron lied to me:( He said he's 13 but he's actually 15....so bad..how could u lie to your friend/senior arh..wait....he's older than so...isn't he my senior?But I'm in Sec 3 next year and he's in Sec 2 next year..so I'm the senior right?okay...nevermind..HOW COULD U LIE TO UR FRIEND?!!!!I forgive u:) haha

okay thats all:D

bye bye
Maddie:)

OOoooo!!!A SWIMMING POOL!!! :D

ello..today,I woke up at 11am..the drilling again...hmm..haha..had bee hoon & chee quah for brunch :D helped mum with the washing of the sofa sheets...its really dirty:P after that I went out..hehe..went to chill at friend's place:D so fun...there was a swimming pool!!!Splash Splash :D
haha...so bored :D okay thats all :D
Oh wells.The truth hurts but its time to face reality. :D I'm alright.wake up!Don't be a fool.wake up!Thank you.But its time for me to leave this place.A Change~

bye bye
Maddie :)

Walk :D

Dear Diary,
today I woke up at 11 plus :D Got woken up because my neighbours were drilling:(mmmm my brother made French Toast for me & my mum :D so nice of him :D emmm the air-con repair men came at 2pm...was quite bored.I didn't have anything to do.So I went out for a walk around the neighbourhood.Too bad couldn't meet with Gideon...haha...he needa to go for his eye check-up..so I didn't go visit him :D I was kinda silly, I wore my black jacket..so I felt HOT after awhile..I came home after 1 round..went to help mum with dinner..I was so HUNGRY..I didn't have lunch.Mmmm...so bored... :D Maybe I'll visit Gideon tomorrow:D THANK YOU ALVIN NG!!!THANK YOU FOR CHEERING ME UP :D!!I guess u too understand me like Jia Ling.That sometimes I'm acting strong.Anyways,thank you for being such a GREAT FRIEND!AND ALVIN NG MENG TONG CHEER UP!!! :DDD

love.
maddie:D

29 Nov 2009

Dear Diary,
I really have no idea what I've been doing.I think I need space.To be alone.For awhile.What am I thinking about?Don't dream about things that will never happen.I really feel tired.The last song on my playlist, is what I'm feeling now.although I don't understand a single word.It just shows how I'm feeling now.I'm glad I'll be on my vacation soon.Its the best timing for me to stop thinking and just absorb what I'm gonna learn from the trip.

I really felt hopeless during that time in cell.When I heard what was going on I was just speechless.It really hurts to see the cell being torn apart.Thats something I really don't want to see happen.The only reaction from me was to cry...I really felt useless...that I couldn't do anything to change or to reflect.Although Sam didn't blame anyone who was in worship min,I really felt that I couldn't do anything to save the cell because I wasn't around and I didn't know what was going on.It doesn't mean that I'm not to be blame too.I wasn't really sharing ideas for our cell's Sec 1 newcomers,so partly my fault too.Hmmm...I just pray that all of us will reflect on what happened.

So I guess those of u who have read this, knows what I'm thinking about?okay..bye bye

love.
Maddie:)

SATURDAY!!!

Dear Diary,
I guess I've knew the answer all along.I've just being too stubborn to face it.I've learnt a lot from today service.Praise...yupp..Its cleared my mind and well brought me,even closer to God. Emm...today I slipped and fell down on the stairs.the floor was wet and my converse didn't have enough grip:( just realized a bruise on my right hand...mmmmhad lunch at ikea...yupp...It's been a longtime since I've been there :D..mmm after that was cell..was kinda upset...hmmm..I just cried..mmm..yupp thats why when u saw me with my red eyes..and I just said I'm fine.Yupp..mmm but I hope its fine now:)mmm...yupp :DSorry for being childish at times..I didn't mean to cause u guys any trouble :D

yupp :D
that's all, peace out!
love.
Maddie

Friday :DDD

EMMMMM ELLOOOO:DDDD
Dear Diary,
today I woke up LATE again...heehee...mmm had toasted sandwich :Dyumm..emmm had five-spices chicken for dinner :DDD THANK YOU AUNTIE JO!!!Oh Yeah!!!her cook book is out...its called Soya & Spices mmm....adter munching...I played Wii...Spiderman games and Will Music :D emm after that I went to play my recorder,piano & guitar :D practice practice:D...now still playin guitar :D Argh!!!My com scared me....the whole screen just turned black for 1 sec...oh.... :D
Mmmm...meeting Gideon for lunch tmr:D haha :D mmm...I've tried to turn my world back to normal.. :D mmm...forgotten everything:D mmm...BE HAPPY :D
mmm...quite busy talking to friends online now...so I've nothing much to write about now...so cya :D

love.
Maddie :D

Typical Thursday (TT) :O

hey...
Dear Diary,
today I woke up really late...was really tired...em...had Toast Bread,Kimchi Noodles :DDD...Brunch.. :D Yumm:D after that was clearing up of trash...hehe..my room...has loads of rubbish...mmm...stayed at home the whole day...had spicy chicken wings for dinner.having stomache...mmm ate too much spicy food today.I wish I could go back to when I was little as it all seems like a dream that nothing went wrong,even if something bad happened,it all would be gone...I don't want to feel unhappy because I know thats not me..Because I want everyone around me to be happy together.I hope everything would be fine...great:D I guess my wish this coming christmas would be everyone being able to forgive each other and be happy:D because thats what I want for myself too..to be able to forget and move on :D I know that some of you reading this may feel I'm being hypocrital but thats what I truly wish for.okay..emmm..I'm starting to sound like an old grandma..yupp thats all :DDD cya soon!

love.
monster:D (2E4 I miss u)

Fun :DDDDD

hello world:DDDDD
Dear Diary,
today when I woke up,I wasn't having a fever anymore:DDDD I was so hype :D Had a weird dream...I dreamt that seamonkeys were going to take over the world...Summary is that seamonkeys' owner mistreated them..and well did an evil experiment that made them human-size for fame & fortune...kinda scary & weird...hmmm and so please take good care of your seamonkeys:DDDD
I went out with Jia Ling today :DDD super FUN..went to buy her iTouch :DDDDD..hehe..yupp..erm..after that we went to Dhoby Ghaut to play PARA PARA...but sadly the machine was GONE!!!I think it was spoilt...hmmm...yupp...
mmmm...I don't have anymore hopes on u...because I know it will just hurt more...so thats why I'm leaving...
I wrote a song..hehe..quite EMO like Kenzo's...hehe.....I was just doing it for fun...I really enjoy expressing myself through writing songs about my life or maybe others:DDD
Gonna sleep soon :DDDDD Have an AWESOME WEEK:DDDDD

love.
Maddie:D

HAPPY HAPPY :DDDDD

ELLO:D
Maddie here :DDDDD
Dear Diary,
today,I got back my phone :DDDD I'm so HAPPY :DDDDD hehe...Yupp...I went to the arcade at J8 :DDD...wanted to play PARA PARA :D but so sad...they don't have it there....(T.T)....then I went to Popular to buy notebooks...hehe...I love it :DDDD...emmmm...I bought tights too :DDD hehe...
Yupp...I'm feeling kinda feverish now...mmmm...hehe...i should be fine by tomorrow :DDD Plus I'm going out too :DDD can't disappoint my friend :DDD heehee...wheeee:DDD

LOVE,
MADDIE:DDDD

Shopping with Guys= XoX

Dear Diary,
Today is the first time I realized that guys can shop LONGER than girls.About 45 minutes.This morning was supposed to meet up at 10.30 at Serangoon MRT but it was changed to 11.30am so Jia Ling & I went to Macs to wait and have my COFFEE!!:D Met some weird people there..They kept staring at me.I just laughed it off thinking that their looking at me because I'm dressed so nicely.*laughs*After that, we waited at the taxi-stand outside the MRT for the guys.We were taking retarted photos again!*laughs* Ryan arrived & asked me to call Avery..erm like about 7 times.The guys were officially 2 and a half hours late while we went to Plaza Sing to eat PizzaHut for lunch.PizzaHut's food ain't that GOOD for me.Oh Yeah!On the way to the trains in Serangoon MRT, meet Yi Sin!HAHA!What a coincidence!Yupp.The guys said I looked weird!HAHA!And Yupp!The GUYS shopped SERIOUSLY LONG!!!Jia Ling and I were so BORED.We left about 3 plus.Came home and changed.And went to sleep about 5 plus.Woke up at 6.05pm.Felt like I had a Hangover.Yupp.RYAN is so DEAD!He kept using my handphone to call Avery.Bill might BURST!No Calling or smsing.Need some ALONE TIME to think over my atitude the past weeks.Yupp!:D

Madelia
16/10/09

Missing

I don't know why but after I returned to sch, I felt something miss...like I was empty...This whole week was so busy for me...I had to stay back everyday just to try to complete the RC Project...I'm so tired...I don't know why I was feeling so fragile...like one touch could break me into a million pieces...it was really frustrating to try to control the class's attitude against the teachers...and to stop people from bringing sweet drinks or food into the classrooms...I just feel so tired of it...I don't know but sometimes I felt I made people misunderstand of my intentions which makes them gossip about me...i just kept forcing a smile when I didn't really feel like it...I felt really disappointed of my friend today..she had changed a lot ever since I met her...but what can I really say, people change

Depressing

Freak Lah!
Today got History Test loh!!!
I didn't study at all
This whole week very busy lah
Got SC Investiture then must stay back so many times
Got so many tests and assignments pop out

A Few Points
1. Life suxs when someone B*tches about you behind your back
2. The atmosphere in class was Depressing
3. Always come home late
4. Need SLEEP!(i need loads of Zzzz)

I finally finished my Art Piece...
Ms Yvonne thought i was so Guai that i paste, the small pieces of paper i tore, one by one
But then she found out that i was being lazy..
HAHA!!
Well, her mood at that time was great not like when we're in class during her lesson
Ended up my Art piece looked kinda of weird...
Hmm...Jia Ling, Yan Ting, Chong Hui & Ms Yvonne says it is ok
After that went SC Room go get Korean Song from Jia Jie
Had to do a bit of assignments from the "President & Exco"before i could leave
Came home about 4 plus
Read a bit of Breaking Dawn then took a 2 hour nap
Woke up about 7 plus
Had dinner & Merci Chocolates
Watched a bit of TV
And now blogging
Thats all
Have A Great Week
And Good Luck To Everyone For Their Exams!!!
God Bless:)

Hmmm...Today

Today was SO-SO, i guess.
Ms Joseph didn't come to day.(So Sad T.T)
We got our NEW Ez-link Card back.
I don't like it.
They used to photograph from P6(I look horrible:X)
I said to Jia Ling, i rather get a New one.
And she said she agreed with me.
She wants to change hers too.
Yupp...
I had Duty today at Block F, Level 4...
Was the same as usual...i guess
After that i went for Lesson
Jia Ling & I sat at the usual place
Then Avery and Alvin Ng joined us...(nothing sure why?)
They did most of the experiment while Jia Ling & I were slacking.(To tired)
Then later our Teacher, who is new in our school, started scolding people as usual(SUPER IDOITIC:X)
Then our Teacher kept using words like "BLOODY" & said that he/she would use violence on us.
The Teacher was so ANGRY that when he/she bang the table with his/her fist, the objects on it literally flew up.(There was even some mist that flew up in the air which technical looked as though that something had caught on fire)
I wrote on a piece of paper quietly and passed it to Jia Ling: "He/She has lost it!"
Jia Ling replied me: "He/She is just PISSED.Really PISSED."
Then I replied back: "It seems that He/She has lost His/Her HUMANITY!"
She said to me: "Do you even know what is the meaning of HUMANITY?!"
I said: "Well, it means that they lost their common sense or i guess being cruel or something that is inhuman."
Well, after our Teacher finished scolding, we continued with our experiments.
During the experiments, i asked all of us in the group: "We can sue Him/Her if He/She uses violence on us, right?"
The rest of them replied: "I guess so."
Jia Ling said joking: "We could all chip-in the money and get Ryan's Lawyer to help us."
I said: "Ryan?!You must be kidding!"
Then Avery said: "If we don't have enough money, we can ask Jacob.His Dad is RICH!"
After the conversation, we did our experiment.
The bell rang and we handed back for class.
It was English Lesson.
We had to present our project on "Local War Heroes"
Well, Jia Ling was the one speaking the whole time while i clicked to button on the computer and the rest of them just stood or sat near the table.
The rest of us didn't do much...i guess
Then the guys were fooling around with a piece of paper in Ryan's pencil case.
It was full of remarks of Ryan from his friends from church if i'm correct.
There was a few statements which stood out the most.
"I Love RYAN...From Siti" & " I Love U...From Siti"
The guys were making fun of him...(I was laughing at the way Alton read it A LOUD!!!HAHA)
Yupp...
After that was Chinese Lesson.
I was so tired & restless.
It was quite boring...
There were about 5 people sleeping in class:X
School Ended
Bought Bubble Tea
Walking with Long Min
Long Min went asnd asked Seashen to help a blind lady to get a taxi.
Seashen kana seboh by us like that...Both of us then Hi fiived each other.
After Long Min reached his house, i walked home alone...
Luckly it didn't rain when i was walking home...(i didn't bring umbrella)
Ate Lunch
Watched TV
Had Headache, so i went to nap(didn't even sleep at all)
Practiced Guitar Playing
Now Blogging

{I lyke hym.Does he lyke me?If u feel it just tell me...don't treat it invisible, it would break my heart}

hey guys!!!

Hey guys!!
today was alright...hmm...i found out abt loads of things...
anyways, i feel kinda lovelorn now...
hmmm...
a bit sad though.
yupp
after sch, went to Qistina house to do project...then walked Jia Ling to bus-stop & walked all the way home in the rain:D
Its so fun to walk in the rain:D
hehe
yupp blogging now
and now i'm gone tell u abt my iCamp!

iCamp!!!
It was GREAT!!!
My group was called Tsikenu!!!(which means The Lord Our Righteousness)
I made A LOT OF FRIENDS
i have learnt a lot of things during this camp
i thank God for speaking to me
He has touched my life in many ways
And i praise the Lord that he did:D
I just want people to know that God loves you very much
He wants to get closer to you
It is up to you to listen for His call

ok...Madelia signing off
:D

History Outing

Hey.Welcome!Its Been A While.

Well...its going to be Chinese New Year soon...I'm getting ready to collect Red Packets!Today was great...i started off with my SC duty at Gate B...>>>for latecomers...anyway...it was my second day and it willend in a years time...>>>i think..there were some guys in the latecomers group and they said i was kind of innocent as i was a bit clumsy...yeah and there was one guy in the group of the Upper Sec...i forgot to tell him that he had to see the teacher...so i went up to him and ask if that was his name and he said i had marked the name wrongly...he said his name was the one above that name he had said was wrong...so then i walked back to the senior and was about to ask her, the guy shouted aloud "i was joking only!"then i think he mummbled "so innocent."so then i told the senior that he lied about the name problem.I'm so clumsy...hmmm...is it so nice to joke around me?!Is it because i have a smily face thats why?!But there is nothing i can do about it as i was born with it!Hmmm...i think i take some time for me to get use to this...anyway, i still have Recess Duty on Monday and Wednesday...Monday>>Level 4 Block F.Wednesday>>Level 2 Block F.Today's Lessons were Literature, Maths, Mother Tongue, English and Home Econs.hmm...i still haven't done my home.There is maths Exercise 2a & Home Econs pg18-22(Don't do Q6).The maths homework, i don't really understand Q6...so difficult to understand...i try the first method with Q6b, i checked the final answer with the textbook but it was different...hmmm...i need help...Xue Ke help me, please?!Anyway, thats all!